Holy crap just got a call from the company I’ve applied for a job at and have made it to first round interview. Got picked out 81 applicants as one of 10 for phone interviews, Somehow made it through the psychometric testing now just gotta make it through the first round interview. Hello imposter syndrome my old friend i wish i didn’t have to talk to you again.

Just asked my manager for a raise for the first time ever. They’ll get back to me soon 🍿

Because I’m a VIP at the casino I’m staying in, they gave me a VIP line pass which I hadn’t used yet. I just came downstairs to get some breakfast and there was a line of around 8 or so people waiting to be seated. Then next to them was the empty VIP line.

You’ve never seen so much a smug swagger as me waltzing past the peasants and being seated immediately. They even called out that they have a VIP over their little radios.

I’ve made it, ma. This is the good life I said I’d find when I took off with nothing but my bindle on my shoulder and a dream in my heart all those years ago.

Taking all guesses as to why the cat is judging me this morning.

I’ve created a monster… after so long on tuna cat food Melbcat got bored but once the lamb came out she was obsessed. Kept asking for more food, to the point of having a little tantrum and leading me back to the kitchen. Twice. It’s like she’s got hollow legs.

I should have been strict and said that’s enough though. I want her to maintain chonk but she may have a tummy ache already from so much rich meat and will definitely be a bit constipated or sick tomorrow.

It’s the first of the month so I’ll be worming her too.

Thank you to the wonderful people here who gave me words of advice yesterday. I read it all and it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside :)

While we’re brain dumping I just want to say: I got another snarky email from the boss this evening; it was a legitimate comment, but said in quite a condescending way that really is just laughable coming from a manager, not to mention incredibly hypocritical given how poorly they’ve handled things for months now.

And readers… Despite the exact text being exactly one of the worse things my brain has flagellated itself with for years, i.e. a nightmare come true, I actually, finally, DIDN’T spiral, or feel the need to distract myself.

I just rolled my eyes and pretty calmly kept on with what I was doing without missing a beat. And then I found a good break and am having dinner. And I still don’t feel a burgeoning anxiety - I feel calm, and confident, and safe, and relieved that most of this will be over soon. Because I am no longer trapped. ⛓ ⛏

Unrelated: Sox’s blood test results came back. Frustratingly, her results were borderline, but also highly suggestive of an ovarian remnant (>2x the usual level). It makes sense that it was borderline by the time she came back from the vet she was pretty much back to normal so it would’ve been at the end of the cycle. However, the options are extremely expensive… Surgery is like 2.5-3k 😿 and her owner is gonna struggle a lot to get that kind of money given how much he’s already spent on her. Right now her cycles are very inconsistent, so maybe he might just have to put up with her being an absolute pain for 2-3 weeks every year. And save up a contingency fund in case the cycles do become more regular.

Anyway, I just want to say FUCK YEAH I GUESSED RIGHT.

Today hasn’t been the greatest of days. Found out that I might be doing my job search wrong, and the feeling of having done literally everything else wrong too is pervasive. Back to square one.

Been distracting myself with pictures of animals being cute in the meantime.

I just completed the first survey of the A2 milk study I am on. Lots of exciting questions about my digestive system, including one rating my last bowel movement. With pictures for reference. The things we do for free milk 🤣

Started a new exercise program this morning, a bikini abs one. While I have no desire to wear a bikini (I’m too lazy for the required landscaping) I am interested in toning a bit around that area. I’ve made visible gains since I started this whole exercise thing… my daughter told me this morning that my improvements looked “epic!” I feel so proud about that!

Writing petulant replies to ridiculous emails will never not amuse me.

Shitty busy week coming to an end. I swear if some fuckwit at works irks me today there will be consequences and repercussions.

Non-violent ones of course, but the thoughts of violence will be strong.

4 different browser sessions, two seperate devices, five mobile apps. Ready to spot this “forever loading” bug that happens on Fridays.

Happy Spring everyone. 🌱

Hurgh. I rang the council to sort things out with the bin and it seems while juggling everything I’ve looked at the wrong day. That’s embarrassing as I had even gone so far to check the calendar before putting it out.

That’s good though, that’s sorted and I won’t be waiting long.

Edit: On the bright side Melbcat doesn’t seem sick this morning. She ordered more lamb.