Struggling with insomnia and panic attacks again, though I’m the process of quitting caffeine to deal with anxiety for good.

We went to the Hamilton Cementery today, just to see if my photo collage with my stepdad’s pictures was working. I have to render it again due to it having the wrong aspect ratio for the projector.

I ordered some Domino’s pizza on the phone, on our way back to Otorohanga. They charged me $24 for what used to always be a regular-sized pizza, and some fries on the side. I thought I’d at least be some restaurant-quality dish - but it’s just a bunch of bread with vegetables, cheese and sauce slapped onto it?

sigh I’m so tired of being broke. At least I can finally start work on my 34ft catamaran, now that my timber has arrived. I don’t want to be here anymore. Give me a warm tropical paradise to anchor at. Catch anchovies and sardines all day. Order my medication online in bulk. The further from here, the better.