But (in my opinion) not like a man, lol. It’s…almost like sweet onions, I guess? Just a bit sweet, but distinctly onion-y. Also, there’s a bit of a sourness that gets stronger over time.

I’m not sure this is the mythical girl smell, in fact I’m pretty sure it isn’t, but it’s not bad! I know that body odor of any kind is socially unacceptable, buuuut…this ain’t half bad. If I could keep this smell, I probably would. Although, I will be showering today.

Me smelling bad is no surprise. I spent the entire night either huddling under a blanket, sweating profusely or pushing the blanket away and freezing. There was no in-between. I’m certain this is at least partially the kratom withdrawal, because as with any substance agonizing the opiate receptors, the withdrawal causes flu-like symptoms. Also, my bf tells me I’m super warm despite me literally freezing, so I’m probably running a fever/temperature lol.

This definitely isn’t man smell tho. Men smell…musky and literally just manly and…idk, bestial?. I smell like a sweaty human being. There is a difference. And I like it a lot. I prefer this so much to the nauseating smell my body used to produce pre-HRT.

The upside of this is that I actually changed the bedsheets in a loooooong time. I even hand-washed my silk pillowcase that I sleep on (yes, I know, I’m part of the problem, it really is a cruel material…).
I’m extremely low-energy rn, but still…actually doing stuff makes me feel a lot better. And that’s a lot better than spiraling into mania and posting 18 posts on 196 in 4 hours.

Idk. I’m just trying to say that I smell different. I think it’s the hormones, could be wrong. I’m not even completely sure that smells are gendered. But I like it. A lot. And that’s the important part, I think.
Thank you all for being here 💜

Edit: Oh, I should have also mentioned…I haven’t epilated my armpits in a while, so there’s some hair there. Whenever I do tho, any body odor that I have is gone. Sooooo…this is actually entirely my fault, lol