For bottom surgery in December! I’m super excited, especially since I was originally staring down a 3 year timeline back in July. Had a consultation earlier this week and it went amazingly well! I feel decently prepared, but please share any tips for the lead up or recovery. Eeeeep!

  • Eskarina (she/her)@piefed.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    3 days ago

    I’ve strongly leaned towards it from the moment I came out to myself, never thought I shouldn’t do it, but think I put the actual decision off a bit, because I knew I’d have to wait anyway. Had all these rationalizations, like, yeah sure it makes sense to have to wait for so long because it’s such a big deal and there’s no way back. For most of my life I just didn’t allow myself to have wishes that I thought impossible (like being a girl in the first place).

    But fuck that. I want it and I want it now, that’s what it is. I’ve been fantasizing about this for years, way before I realized I’m trans. Hell, teen me even wondered if they’d be better in some way without that thing. Can’t even say I’m 100% certain it’s the right call, but I definitely don’t want to spent the rest of my life wondering.

    What did surprise me is that I was about 98% sure that I just wanted a minimal-depth procedure. But I was never able to feel 100% in that decision and because of that, I forced myself to reconsider my rationale and I realized that I was leaning more toward convenience rather than what I actually wanted.

    Huh, that’s the same reason why I considered minimal-depth… Can’t say I’m super excited about having to dilate for the rest of my life or the infection risks, but I just hope it’ll be worth it.

    I’m kinda thankful for my mental breakdown when I was looking at a 3 year wait since it forced me to think about alternatives.

    Wow, it brought the wait down ~2 years for you? Now I want a mental breakdown x).

    Also wish hair removal would be faster, I’ll be so darn happy when this is done. Chin hair is so stubborn, yikes.

    Thanks for sharing, can’t wait for your updates :)

    • That_Bitch_Is_Cily@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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      9 hours ago

      But fuck that. I want it and I want it now, that’s what it is. I’ve been fantasizing about this for years, way before I realized I’m trans.

      For real. It may seem like I’m rushing through my transition and, from the outside perspective, that I’m being rash and not thinking things through. But in reality, these feelings have just been at critical mass for a long time, I just didnt say anything about it until now. So it sucks to be at the point where I need things to happen now but also need to wait for loved ones and the medical process to catch up.

      Can’t even say I’m 100% certain it’s the right call, but I definitely don’t want to spent the rest of my life wondering.

      Inaction is still action. I know what that life is like and it doesn’t work, so why sit stagnant in it when I could do something to maybe make life better.

      Can’t say I’m super excited about having to dilate for the rest of my life or the infection risks, but I just hope it’ll be worth it.

      Same. I just couldn’t close off the possibility without experiencing it first. I don’t want to disappoint myself later on because I cannot satisfy cravings that I could have because my anatomy doesn’t allow for it. And to have that due to a choice I made would probably induce a different type of dysphoria.

      Wow, it brought the wait down ~2 years for you? Now I want a mental breakdown x).

      Yea super fun, highly recommend… Lmao I am thankful that transitioning unlocked this sassy, spicy, bitchy side of me that helps propel my self advocacy. Not getting surgery this winter was not going ti be an option with the plans my wife and I have made moving forward. So I’m so psyched that I was able to find an alternative who is reputable, experienced, and comfortable.