Well thats it shows over its official. Im publicly out at this point. Finally told therapist, dressing girlmode most times leaving the house (even if its stealth girl) and have a gender pathways appt in 1 month from now (which i have confirmed now that ill WALK OUT WITH HRT😍😍😍)
It feels great! But im still scared of the rest of what comes. I wont lie, seeing the hate and outright violence against trans people right now makes me wanna go back into the closet and lock the door forever. But im trying my best to be brave.
But most of the important people to me know now. My daughter is the last one i need to talk with.
My therapists reaction “honestly a lot of stuff youve talked about makes alot more sense now” 😨 like gee thanks? I guess its good you were paying attention this whole time lol.
She also changed my gender in my chart, asked if i wanted my name changed but i told her no im not ready for that yet.
But it went well, and heres hoping the future is bright for all of us ❤️❤️
Im still scared But ill get through this Ill be strong
Hello Brooke, good bye Zakk(🤢🤮)
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Yay! Awesome you rock girl! You’re braver than I am. Even of I started hrt earlier… 4 months soon! I don’t girlmode that often and still sad about it ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა
Last time I did I was for some groceries this week-end when visiting a friend living far away. I’ve been looked at as a freak because I was wearing a chocker. The rest of the clothing was “decent”. Some pants that could be worn by both gender and a top that is more feminine / alt.
I haven’t lived any physical aggression yet nor verbal abuse (probably because I’m not frail). Lost some strength though but I could punch an asshole or too if needed - easier said than done though since I don’t like violence.). The most violent thing I’ve done is slap someone who punched me way back in middle school. 😅
Im happy my partner is more aggressive, i get to be like “sic em babe” and off she goes to tear some chud a new asshole 😂😂
I love that you havent lived any violence! Lets keep it that way ❤️
For real though im shit scared of anti trans violence, one of my biggest concerns. I always think about Brianna Ghey and others like her (RIP 💔😭)
But like, bottom line, if something ever becomes a terrible situation, i generally have something to take care of that