trans xennial musician

I love synthesizers, all sorts of music (mostly electronic), b/cult movies, science fiction, DIY, graphics design, PC hardware, retro computing (Commodore <3), cooking, singing. I’m truly sorry to anyone I have unintentionally hurt in my confusion about my identity. Love and light. Sorry I can’t talk like a normal human being btw, I’m trying.

Here’s some of my music, grateful if you’d give it a listen: https://etherphon.bandcamp.com/
https://soundcloud.com/etherphon
The stuff up there right now is a tad old, but it is some music that deals with my struggles with my realizations about my sexuality and gender, thus some of it is a little difficult and discordant. I’m working on some more joyous music. It’s 100% hardware based (synthesizers, samplers, sequencers, effects), no computer, DAW or AI involved in recording.

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Cake day: June 2nd, 2026
  • etherphon@piefed.blahaj.zonetoTrans Memes@lemmy.blahaj.zone•I need to work outEnglish
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    12 days ago

    I really didn’t care about my body before, working out was a chore because I didn’t care about having the body in picture A, but now that I am aiming for a more feminine form, which works better with my body’s natural composition anyways, I find the results much more pleasing and as such it’s more fun. I also enjoy doing stuff like aerobics and yoga much more than lifting weights :)

  • etherphon@piefed.blahaj.zonetoTransfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•my brain was fucked by DOCTORS, thanks you doooctoor!English
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    13 days ago

    I have no idea how some doctors keep their licenses wow. I just wanna say be very careful with tapering, I’m sure you will be but I just wanna make sure you’re safe, I’m glad you got your appetite back that’s great!

    The real key is to not expect a great improvement, or if you start to feel better and then feel worse again one day, don’t let it discourage you too much because it will get better eventually

    Yeah I dunno, I used to buy a lot of nootropics online and they all came from China, as far as I know everything was legit, at least it didn’t kill me :P, but that was years ago. stay safe

  • etherphon@piefed.blahaj.zonetoegg_irl — Memes about being trans people in denial and other eggy topics@lemmy.blahaj.zone•egg💡irlEnglish
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    13 days ago

    Oh this comic hits. I really have no idea how it never entered my head that most of my confidence, image issues, apathy were tied to dysphoria. Before puberty I was a bubbly, fun, person, then puberty hit me like a ton of bricks and I went off the rails for… well like 30 years I guess. I had so much anger all the time (of course I still have some, who couldn’t today) about nothing in particular, anger at other people for no reason, and I just could not figure out why. It’s not like there were no signs. I enjoyed dressing up with my sister in her sparkly dance clothes when we were kids, in 7th grade I was hanging pictures of Cory Haim and Cory Feldman from Tiger Beat magazine in my room like the girls in the class were doing, I had a whole arm full of jelly bracelets which were so cool at the time, but mainly for girls. Every time I said something like “men’s clothes are so boring” what I really meant was “I really wish I could just wear womens clothes”, I won the girls screaming contest at a grade school dance we had. The more I look back the more incidents like that pile up but still I was clueless about it. I feel light as air now, I care about my body and how my legs look, I can wear shorts, clothes are fun again, life is fun again

    Funny part is I was always such an advocate of being yourself, being original and it turns out all those years I wasn’t even being myself XD