Been high nonstop for years. I realize it’s bad for my health. But at least being high feels good.
My future is on a planet becoming increasingly unhabitable, under a government becoming increasingly fascist, doing nothing but working and still not being able to afford rent or food, never traveling, never making real friends much less finding a life partner, water quickly becoming a luxury, and with zero chance of ever retiring.
So why even bother?
Have you considered that you might be self medicating depression rather than getting high?
Maybe a professional could help more than anyone on lemmy?
I agree with everything you said, except the “rather than” sentiment. It sounds a lot like the “stimulants don’t make people with ADHD high, it just makes them normal” folklore - this is not how anything works, though: people with ADHD can get high on stimulants just fine. Perhaps “getting high to cope” would be closer, but op basically said this in the post.
That’s fair. I didn’t mean to imply anything about the drug use.
The way OP views the world reminds me of how I see things when I am experiencing certain depression symptoms. I tend to filter my view of the world so that only the negative things are true, and it makes it harder to do anything positive in my life.
When my symptoms let up, either through treatment or sometimes on their own, I can still see the negatives but they’re there with a lot of positives, too.
If OP does have depression, it’s possible that treating it in a more effective way would be the answer to their question.