It looks like people are having a really rough time lately, in the aims of improving the mental well-being of our comrades please consider this post an open forum to vent frustrations about whatever is bothering you.
If you’re currently having a hard go of it, remember that we here at the 'grad care about you.
I needed this a few months ago. I don’t anymore. The bad vibes are transient and go away comrades. You’ll be fine, and stronger later on. Try to stay calm and focus on the positives.