I’m just plain fucked in the head, that’s what it is. Bipolar, borderline personality disorder, whatever it is…I’m not normal, that’s for sure.

Thanks everyone. Sorry for taking up space in this community. Sorry that you have to suffer my presence. I am actualy the worst and I know it.

I’m gonna order a pizza, bedrot and enjoy my evening. Thanks for all of your kind words of which I am undeserving 💜

P.S: I suck

  • Trincapinones@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    I really like your posts, a lot of times I say to myself when I see a post that I think is yours: “Is this Miisha?” and find very funny that I get it right everytime, I’m sorry that you have to go into this weekly highs and lows, but if you enjoy it, please keep posting, you are part of this place :3

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    You should take up space here, makes it feel more cozy. You’re not bad or the worst and you are welcome and you also don’t suck <3

    I’m glad you recovered a little, enjoy your Pizza!

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    Giiirl. You are not your problems. Asking for help is not a weakness. Receiving help is not shameful. Showing empathy to someone vulnerable feels good. The commenters sending you good vibes feel good for doing it. It’s a kind of communion. Self-reliance is bullshit.

    Regarding any potential mental disorder, you’ll have to work with an actual doctor to figure that out with them. I have my disorders, my friends have theirs, my daughter has hers’. Psychology is kind of “overpathologized” right now, but it’s really useful for finding strategies that help us deal with our own personal flavor of trauma.

    So, what’s on that pizza? :3

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      Thank you, that actually means a lot to me 💜
      I’m just broken right now. Maybe it’s how I am. Idk anymore…

      3 pizzas for me, the only food I’m having today lol (I don’t eat)
      Mushrooms, then quattro formagi, and lastly margarita!

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        I’m so happy I can make a little difference for you! It gets better, it really does. Same date one year ago I was a dysfunctional mental mess on sick leave. I received a lot of support, professional and from family. I slowly rebuilt myself, then I made the changes I needed to live. Now I’m in a genuinely good place. It’s entirely possible. Actually at one point it becomes inevitable. From what I see of you, you’re gonna have a blast with life on the other side of that bump. So hang in there and bon appétit, those pizzas sound yummy!!

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    mmm pizza :3

    seriously though i want you to know how nice it is that you take up space here. it might not seem like it from my posts but i have a lot of social anxiety and self doubt that makes posting really hard sometimes. seeing you here being genuine and sharing your inner thoughts makes it seem like i could too, like its ok to be visible and engage with people. you definitely dont suck and im really glad youre here.

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    You don’t suck, and you’re not the worst! You’re not taking up space, you’re included in the space. You’re wanted and loved.

    Also, that sounds like a lovely evening, I hope you enjoy!

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    Normal is a nonsense term when applied to human beings; there’s no such thing as a normal person and there never has been. You are You, as unique and different and beautifully weird as anyone else. Also the trans community is huge, there’s plenty of space. Make yourself at home, I’m glad you’re here.

    Since we’re on the topic of mental illness and you bring up being undeserving, I’ll share something someone once told me that helped me think about what I deserve: there’s a difference between deserving something and being entitled to it, and people often conflate the two terms. Deserving kind words means you are worthy of receiving them, it has nothing to do with any obligation of others to give them to you. My words are my own to give to whomever I wish, and your deserving them puts no burden on me. They are given freely and gladly. You deserve kindness. I hope your evening passes with ease and comfort, and that the future brings you more good days and fewer bad ❤️

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    You are not taking up space in this community Miisha, not at all. You are welcome here. This community is here to support you as much as every other transfeminine person. Your presence is not detrimental, it has been enriching. My decision to add a rule about labeling vent posts was not motivated by any one person. It is a choice I have made after a long time moderating this community and listening to a lot of feedback.

    I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder before. I have dealt with severe bottom dysphoria, severe depression, self harm, suicidal ideation, intense highs and lows, ive dealt with these things all my life. Believe me when I say this, I very very strongly empathize with you. You are not alone. My heart goes out to you. I’m glad that we can be here to support you.

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    You definitely don’t suck. Thank you for not going through with anything, and if you can I think you should look into what you can do to get help. Enjoy the pizza :)

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    Hey, I’m just a random guy who stumbled over some of your (quite popular) posts during the last week and a half and every time, they moved me in some way. You’ve made my days better by being on Lemmy, made me smile, laugh, horny and sad. Which, for a guy in depression, having problems feeling anything… From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU!

    I don’t know you, I don’t know what you’re going through. But know, that you are part of a community, you are welcome and appreciated.

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    This conmunity can handle good times and bad times. Like any good relationship. Listen to the people here, and don’t forget you’ve made them open up about their bodies and desires, and sometimes even the sad things in life, which is all healthy. You’ll make it and you deserve every kind word 💜