[i am unsure where this belongs, transjoy? mental health? here where i made the mentioned first post? … idk how crossposing works here 👉👈]

you may remember me lamenting the loss of the ‘gay’ label since empirically i was usually atracted to men but due to me being mtf that’s quite straight now … well there’s a lot to say about this. i might be best described as bi/pan actually.

anyhow. peeps, i met the bestest girl in recorded history. we’ve known each other for a while and shared a hobby, but recently found out we might like each other more, when we had a ridiculously romcom-esque weekend. so we started dating, and my heart is exploding. every day. i will see her again tomorrow, but it doesn’t feel like i can survive that 24 hours. (yes, all very fresh.)

the only thing i am afraid of rn, is that she eventuall ‘finds out’ i am just three(+) diagnoses in a trench coat. i admire her and her work so much i don’t know how she could be interested in me. i also don’t want to make her reassure me all the time … bc we don’t feed the brain worms. but i feel like, i needed to tell someone. 😘

  • strawberry_enjoyer42@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    13·
    3 days ago

    Awww y’all sound cute!

    I don’t wanna “feed the brain worms”, but like, she gets to pick who she wants to date (if the person agrees to it ofc), and she picked you. That’s her choice; her preference.

    As someone who’s struggled with feeling inadequate: just be you, and do what you can to make her happy. It sounds like she likes you a lot.

    Enjoy your re-found homosexuality! :3

    Yours truly,
    5+ diagnoses in a trench coat.

    • kluczyczka (she/her)@discuss.tchncs.deOPEnglish
      11·
      3 days ago

      thank you for you kind words.

      i was thinkin an hour ago, that there is no way her image of myself is identical to the one i had of myself for a decade, and have since seen steadily, eroding. she only know me as the person i was for the last year or so, and that’s pretty consistent. i am no cool, creative or smart girl, yet she liked me back. time to befriend myself?

      in theory, we should be fine. i wanna be and do better tho.

      • strawberry_enjoyer42@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        8·
        3 days ago

        I think you’re cool and smart. You use the fediverse, after all :3

        Also, it’s great you want to self-improve, but don’t forget to love the version of you who’s actually doing the self improvement ;p