37 years young. Tomorrow, I’m finally asking my home physician to send me to a gender identity clinic to assess whether I have dysphoria according to my country’s standards and policies. If my physician does send me there, then within a few years I might get the much needed diagnosis and then I will finally be eligible for HRT.

MEANWHILE.

I have made a list of things that I can start exploring in order to feel more comfortable with the woman within. Gosh… Please excuse my phrasing. I’m so effing closeted. 😅

  • Hair removal - booked!!! Going on the 27th.

  • Perfumes - planned!!! Trying some out tomorrow.

  • Nails - don’t even know where to start. I have NEVER even given these babies a second’s thought. 😭

  • Wigs - I have no hair. If and when I get diagnosed, the state will provide a certain amount every year to buy wigs and they will refer me to a professional wig maker as part of the treatment for dysphoria.

  • Makeup - no idea where to start. Is there ANY other way than watching YouTube tutorials? Although I totally accept that this probably is the most effective way.

  • Clothes - am I just supposed to try on everything I find pretty? 😅🩷🩵🤍

  • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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    3 days ago

    Thank you. My age is one of my biggest hurdles when it comes to my mental health, so honestly, this is kind of triggering. But I of course understand what you meant and I’m grateful for the encouragement!!! 🩵

    I have always known how I want to behave, talk, look and feel. But I grew up in such a cisnormative context that I internalized the mantra, “something’s wrong with me”. My mental health issues didn’t help either: I had no sense of self worth whatsoever. 💔

    But I am here now. And I believe in my future. 🩷