i genuinely feel like my entire life and mindset have done a… at least a 90 by now, by somehow, somehow getting this hail mary pass off and setting this up. i can’t believe this is real life it’s very bizarre, i’m just shaking with anxiety and energy
i just feel like she’ll hate me upon first sight (this was thru an app) for some reason, she’ll sense the autism, she’ll know i’m off and the next hour will be awkward and she’ll politely say goodbye.
i mean, alternatively, it could go well, she could be cool. she seems cool which i suppose is why i did this. what is happening i cannot believe these are things that are going on in my life i feel like i was just in a major major hitting slump for 10 years, strikeout after strikeout
and then also what if she ghosts me or stands me up like in the films. what then? add it to the list of failures and try to rebuild my self image?
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If it doesn’t work out, it’s fine. Soooo many first dates don’t work out. It’s painful to date and it’s normal.
I would have the attitude that you are just going to meet this person and it’s not a huge deal if it doesn’t work out. Don’t put pressure on yourself that this is going to be some magical moment. It’s just a person on the other side, with lots of flaws and insecurities and may even not be a nice person.
Try to chill and see if you are a good fit together. If not, it’s fine.
It’s all about if you are a good fit together. Maybe you go there and she is annoying and awful. It’s possible. So just relax.